Thursday, April 28, 2011


My clothes are falling off me again.
I have quite a few size 20 's - jeans, denim shorts, a couple of tops.

Does anyone want them? Jeans have been worn once.
Drop me an e-mail if you're interested - otherwise I'll just put them in the donation box.

I'm on the lookout for a DENIM DRESS for myself. Probably size 16.
Has anyone seen one on their travels???

Tuesday, April 26, 2011


In passing to Mark today, I commented that Easter is over and I didn't eat a "whole Easter Egg"

"Does that mean you ate a lot of halves?" he asked.

Smart alec!

YAY for Kangaroo Point Stairs!!! On the move again - 39.6kgs lost.

Monday, April 25, 2011

one step at a time....

Climbed the stairs at Kangaroo Point this morning to try and get my weight loss moving again.

Phew! They don't get any easier.
I still got jelly legs on the last 15 stairs or so.
Recovery time was quicker this time though.

I remember the first time I climbed them.
(I photographed an event at the bottom and stupidly parked at the top)

I had to stop every few stairs, it took me a long time and I was hyperventilating at the top.
1/2 hour later my legs were still shaky.
It took me years to work up the courage to do them willingly LOL

I enjoyed a Chai at the cafe afterwards while the rest of the gang all had Croissants.

Also went to the local park and kicked a footy around with Kaden this afternoon.
This is a double-bonus.
I get to exercise and Kaden gets to burn off excess energy.

I sat in the Doctor's surgery a couple of weeks ago and tearfully asked for help.
His behaviour is out of control and his actions are affecting the entire family. (not in a good way)

Her thoughts are that his actions (there's a long list - a lot are anxiety / stress related) are a direct result of
me being sick. A fear of dying. A fear of something happening to me. A fear of me going back to hospital.

She's spoken to him at length and we now have a referral for a child Psychologist.
Fingers crossed she can give us some solutions or some guidance in dealing with him.
We've reached breaking point :(

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Happy Easter

I didn't get chocolate.......Mark bought me a gift voucher to Lorna Jane.

Oh dear - I hope he hasn't wasted his money - their clothing is so SMALL!

I've been feeling good the last few days. (haven't weighed)

Here's a couple of photos - yesterday and today.....

Edit to add - No Easter Eggs eaten! Not a hardship really.
I don't crave chocolate anymore.

Friday, April 22, 2011


Okay, I told Mark that I'd gained 400gms and he LAUGHED.....
and told me I should have gone to the toilet first :/

I does sound kind of ridiculous that I was sad to have gained 400gms.
If I'd been watching Biggest Loser I would have thrown something at the TV :)

It wasn't the number. It was that fact that I'd GAINED something for the first time in 9 months.
Add the fact that I'm so close to 40kgs lost - well, it was double the insult.

Anyway, I'm not bothered by it anymore and I'm over my pity party -
THANK YOU so, so much for your messages of support.
I love that I have a cheer squad :) xx


Here's last Easter.
I weigh 38.8kgs less than that photo, so that's what I'm focusing on.


Thursday, April 21, 2011

so close....and yet so far....

Hmmm, let's not talk about weight. Bugger!
I remember this happened when I was *this* close to 30kgs - it took forever to get over the line.

Lack of exercise is the primary reason.
School holidays, sick kids, major dramas with Kaden -
no excuses - I'm to blame and I control what I do (or don't do)

Got up this morning and exercised.
Weighed myself for the first time in quite a few days - (I was avoiding it) Put on 400g :(

It's given me a shake up and I will get moving the right direction.

38.8kgs lost.


Got some awesome blood test results.

Among lots of others, my Vitamin D was 45 (should be 50-150)

Recently - 106

Cholesterol was 6.2 (should be 3.9-5.5)

Recently - 5.2

Triglyceride was 2.3 (should be 0.6 - 2.0)

Recently - 1.2

Fast. Glucose was 5.4 - down to 5.2

Most significantly, my liver function was 62 (normal is 5-30) and is now 10 !

Sunday, April 17, 2011

I maintained my weight while I was away apparently,
but will be interested in what it says tomorrow morning now that I'm back in routine.

Most recent photos. Kind of unhappy with them if I'm honest.
(no offense to Mark who took the photos LOL)

Actually, I hate my hair right now, so maybe that's part of the problem too.

I think I need to pull up last years Easter photos for a kick up the butt.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

powering along....

39.2kgs lost.

Hoping to reach the magic 40kgs while I'm on holidays next week :)

I decided to do a little experiment....and it worked in my favour.

I mixed things up, food-wise and time-wise.
I tried to stay away from my usual foods (ie, I've been having a bowl of cereal every morning) and also swap around the time of day that I normally eat lunch etc.

I was still eating the same amount of food and still eating healthy, but a couple of times, I had my lunch at 10.30am and then something small and light at 12.30pm. Another couple of times, I had my lunch at the normal time, with a good sized afternoon tea and then a light dinner.

It seemed to kickstart my weight loss again. Not sure why it works, but it did :)


I've put away my current Wedding/Engagement rings (too big now)
but while I was doing that I found my original Wedding/Engagement rings.
(They got too tight and I couldn't bring myself to re-size them)
I put them on and they fit perfectly :)

Not sure I'm in "love" with them anymore. (over 15 years old afterall)
Though I look at them and still remember the feeling of wearing my
Engagement Ring for the very first time <3

I think I'll put them away and keep them for Aria.

I might treat myself to new rings when I reach 90kgs.
(that's my end goal, btw I'll be thrilled to achieve that. I can't seem to get my mind around anything lower)

Friday, April 8, 2011

losing my pants...

Katherine wrote...
"So proud of you. Watched BL tonight and to think you have achieved what they have achieved
but you've done it on your own!!! You must be SO PROUD too!!!"

It's weird. If I had set out to lose a "certain number" of weight it would have been sooooo overwhelming....
and to be truthful, I probably wouldn't have done it.
I would make excuses, "It's too hard. It's too much to lose. It would take too long"
I know that, as that's what I've been doing for the last four years.

This was never a weight-loss journey for me.

It was a staying alive journey and I think that made all the difference.

My main objection when I left the hospital was to reduce my blood pressure and not have an Aneurysm or a Stroke.

No doubt that to achieve this I had to lose weight, but it felt as though the decision had been taken out of my hands.

Lose weight or die.


Last week in a crisis I had to quickly grab some clothes to throw on and I pulled a pair of jeans out of my closet.
It wasn't until I got out of the car a little later that I realized.....those pants weren't going to stay up LOL

I (regretfully) threw out a size 26 pair of jeans that used to be tight, but I did hang on to a size 24 just for a reminder.
I was kicking myself for stupidly grabbing my biggest pair of jeans.
I walked along with one hand gripping the waist the whole time and the bottoms were dragging on the ground.
A great look, I'm sure :)
When I finally got home and ripped them off.......size 20!!!! I only bought those jeans around January I think.

I'm guessing I'm a size 16 now. (haven't tried on any new clothes recently)

38.5 kgs lost.

A heartfelt thank you to everyone that posts here, on Facebook or sends me private messages.
It means a lot xx

Monday, April 4, 2011

skip to the loo....

I've taken up skipping. (with a rope, that is)
Oh my gosh.....hilarious :)
Another exercise I need to do under the cover of darkness LOL

Things I've learnt -

Wear a bra

Wear shoes. I'm unco and that rope HURTS when it gets tangled in my feet

Go to the toilet FIRST



My rings no longer fit me. One of them slipped off my hand today while I was holding hands with Aria.
I've taken them both off now. I think in another 5kgs or so, I'll be able to move them both across to the middle finger?
(meaning I'll HAVE to buy a new wedding ring :P )
Or should I just wait until I reach goal and re-size?


I posted the photo above in memory of Bronny-Bean.
He always got us out walking whenever we looked after him for Mum.
He left a large hole in all of our lives when he died suddenly last week :( :(

Saturday, April 2, 2011


Good riddance March. You sucked.


on a happier note - 38 kgs lost!

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